Friday, September 05, 2008
4++ hours of girl talk. just what i needed after everything i've been through this week. THANKS MANDA! love you lots and lots. and it's the first time i cam-whored with her! haha.
and after weeks of feeling like there's something wrong with me, i think i can safely say i'm perfectly normal. thanks to all the girls out there who have helped in one way or another, even if you didn't know it.
alone in situation but not alone in feeling. maybe i can take comfort in that? even my youngest sister can see what's wrong. i don't know why but i felt so... what's the word to use... relieved that she sees why it's all so wrong? so why can't you? but i digress. the amazing power of family.
i guess i should just move on with my life? life's too short to dwell on things you know you can't change and most probably won't change, so JUST DEAL WITH IT and get on with life.
God's in control in every aspect of my life anyway so really what's there to worry about? and as he's proven time and time again prayer works so even if it takes longer this time God has far greater plans than my short term benefits.
so why do i fear that things will never be the same again? i should've just kept my mouth shut. everything i feared would happen, happened.
jeremiah 29:11
anw i have to say that emo songs are strangely therapeutic when you're well emo-ing. especially those you can relate too. haha. ok but no more emo-ing (i'll really try!). i wanna be happy! being sad all the time is gonna make me age faster i think. haha. i really really hope the class gathering scheduled for next sat will materialise, who knows i need something like S07 to take my mind off everything and to just have a relaxed, laugh-out-loud, stress free, HAPPY session with them.
in everything i do, i do it for your Glory.
my tutorial group's really nice. i know we're not gonna be life-long friends but i should be thankful they're so nice and friendly. on thursday they were laughing at me cos i'm so english and still calling me MELODY despite it being the fifth week of school already. no one calls me melody, except my parents and teachers. haha.
only problem is hall now. should i stay or should i go? actually i've already decided to go back to what i've been doing, which is stay over only on days when lessons start early, i.e. mondays and wednesdays. but eileen thinks it's quite a waste of money and feels if we wanna stay should stay the whole week. but a week is way too long for me. haha. so yes still unsettled.
and thank God for everyone who has had to put up with my constant whining and has been super encouraging. eileen weiqin manda chandra zhiyang charmaine colleen keryew. THANK YOU! i know hearing me whine is probably the most irritating thing to put up with but the fact that you guys did meant A LOT to me. (:
Jesus take the wheel,
take it from my hands,
cause I can't do this on my own.
I'm letting go,
so give me one more chance
to save me from this road I'm on.
Jesus take the wheel.
saw this on colleen's blog a while back. awesome song by carrie underwood.
I gotta take it though its heartbreaking
Its something that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how do I live
How do I deal
You just deal with it, deal with it
(I don't want to have to live with it)
You just deal with it, deal with it
frankie j - how to deal
just deal with it.
easier said than done.
4++ hours of girl talk. just what i needed after everything i've been through this week. THANKS MANDA! love you lots and lots. and it's the first time i cam-whored with her! haha.
and after weeks of feeling like there's something wrong with me, i think i can safely say i'm perfectly normal. thanks to all the girls out there who have helped in one way or another, even if you didn't know it.
alone in situation but not alone in feeling. maybe i can take comfort in that? even my youngest sister can see what's wrong. i don't know why but i felt so... what's the word to use... relieved that she sees why it's all so wrong? so why can't you? but i digress. the amazing power of family.
i guess i should just move on with my life? life's too short to dwell on things you know you can't change and most probably won't change, so JUST DEAL WITH IT and get on with life.
God's in control in every aspect of my life anyway so really what's there to worry about? and as he's proven time and time again prayer works so even if it takes longer this time God has far greater plans than my short term benefits.
so why do i fear that things will never be the same again? i should've just kept my mouth shut. everything i feared would happen, happened.
jeremiah 29:11
anw i have to say that emo songs are strangely therapeutic when you're well emo-ing. especially those you can relate too. haha. ok but no more emo-ing (i'll really try!). i wanna be happy! being sad all the time is gonna make me age faster i think. haha. i really really hope the class gathering scheduled for next sat will materialise, who knows i need something like S07 to take my mind off everything and to just have a relaxed, laugh-out-loud, stress free, HAPPY session with them.
in everything i do, i do it for your Glory.
watchin u;
at 8:27 AM
Thursday, September 04, 2008
my tutorial group's really nice. i know we're not gonna be life-long friends but i should be thankful they're so nice and friendly. on thursday they were laughing at me cos i'm so english and still calling me MELODY despite it being the fifth week of school already. no one calls me melody, except my parents and teachers. haha.
only problem is hall now. should i stay or should i go? actually i've already decided to go back to what i've been doing, which is stay over only on days when lessons start early, i.e. mondays and wednesdays. but eileen thinks it's quite a waste of money and feels if we wanna stay should stay the whole week. but a week is way too long for me. haha. so yes still unsettled.
and thank God for everyone who has had to put up with my constant whining and has been super encouraging. eileen weiqin manda chandra zhiyang charmaine colleen keryew. THANK YOU! i know hearing me whine is probably the most irritating thing to put up with but the fact that you guys did meant A LOT to me. (:
Jesus take the wheel,
take it from my hands,
cause I can't do this on my own.
I'm letting go,
so give me one more chance
to save me from this road I'm on.
Jesus take the wheel.
saw this on colleen's blog a while back. awesome song by carrie underwood.
I gotta take it though its heartbreaking
Its something that I had to do
But nobody said that it would hurt so bad
So how do I live
How do I deal
You just deal with it, deal with it
(I don't want to have to live with it)
You just deal with it, deal with it
frankie j - how to deal
just deal with it.
easier said than done.
watchin u;
at 8:34 PM